I want to hold you high and steal my pain away …

Moment of clarity , when barrage of good feelings dive through you when you find sincerity
Rising above the minority
Concentrating on necessity
Little things don’t matter
So leave them as they are broken and batter
Deep inside you , that acknowledgment of your  worth
Within your heart comes your true wealth  
Rise above the minority , keep looking for that moment of clarity
Strive through the barriers
Look them in the eye and shout I’m a survivor
I’m rescued , I’m a fighter
I won’t be a reliability I won’t be a carrier
I know my path , I’ve dreamed it ,
From my core I’ve walked through it I oppose upon you , to let me chained down ,
 nothing in this whole wide world will keep me on the ground
The end is my goal , initial is my beginning
When I reach my destination I will be winning
I don’t need swimming ,climbing , clambering , cutting , compromising I won’t be a aloof
I refuse to be taken for a fool ,
I’m not a goof
I’m a dreamer , I’m survivor
I’m the infinite fighter
People looked down on me
Said I worth no treasure  
I realized I don’t need their approval
By myself I will do so much better
I know what I want , I’m going to pave it
Nothing will come between me and my end
Nothing will erase it , alter it or even replace it
That moment of clarity
When I rise above minority
Only then I will be atop of veracity

my life will not go on the same without you

alot of things has changed , i changed without you mum

im not the maha i was when you were alive

your little girl has to go on in this world without your presence , without your love , without your guidance and orientation and above all , i have to go on without you

you would wanted me to live my life , and to be happy „

and all i want is for you to be happy with me

and all i wish is that you are my proud of me

i want to be your little girl one more time

to feel you , your body feel you hugging me

i want to hear you saying my name just one more time

call my name just once but i won’t hear it

mum . i know your ok

you are with your creator who loves you more than me

he created you „ he knows how much i love you

how much i need you . how much i still need you

he will compensate me

i wouldn’t ask for anything than for you to be pleased with me

mum i will go on on the path you’ve draw for me

i will be what you wanted me to be

i won’t forget all of our talks and all things you’ve taught me

and mum you are the mother anybody would want „ but you’re mine .. and believe we will meet again ..

we will be together again .. it’s not like you’re not with me now

i feel you around me .. i know i don’t see you .. but i can feel you in every breath i take „ in every step i make … still hurts as hell to not see you

but my heart is ok because you live in it .. and where you live can’t hurt „

my life will go on okay .. because your holding my hands in every little step i make

so mommy don’t you worry about your little girl

she’s okay and she will be it’s enough she had you as her mother

and if it was up to me . you’d be my mother in all lives .

until we meet mum .. i love you so much may you rest in peace .. may allah forgive all of your sins and grant you paradise ..

forever faithfully : your little girl ♥

We over look, just to condone

We ignore just to avoid the fight

We smile

just to convince everyone around us that we’re fine

to pick up the pieces of our broken hearts „ we compress and oppress anything

that confessing it might be fatal

ive been quiet , I’ve been so calm

I concealed my lips from anything might be harm

I leaned against you I dived into your open arm

I saw you looking at me compassionately, commendably

And I pleaded that forever you’d look at me with the same charm

So now

I shall stand under the chandeliers

Wait in the chamber where we first met

Look up to the walls and hear the bells chime

As I turned around as the entrance took set

As your face started to appear and I saw your looming smile

As I was waiting with anticipation I was listening to the beat of your steps

I was eluding my own heart beats in depth

You marched up to me you took me tightly into your arms

Then I knew that the promises we’ve made

, the vows we’ve took for each other

Eventually will bring us back together

Would you be everything I ever wanted?

Would you promise to be with me until eternity?

Or will it be too much demanded?

I know when I fell for you passionately

I knew I was ceaselessly attached

To your kindness, gentle and chivalry

I know I was asking for constant understanding

Let the bells on the champers chime

Let the haters wine

We will shine, our hearts twined

Into each other’s arms

Is where we belong

I ought I won’t make you wait long

We are our own armor

You are my aroma

My mesmerizing aurora

You are the thought that devoured my heart

Isn’t it fair, to let our future be weaved by fait

Questions asked , answers broached

Hope was drawn , love was spread

So will you be there ?

In a world that two of us want ,

Share and together we will arise

High up to the skies

We’re going to right the wrong

We’re going to fix the unfixable

Do the unthinkable

We’re going to consume the love we have

Until the end, until death do us apart ..

So will you be a part ?!

Would you ?!

Nobody’s Perfect .. but Your perfect for me ♥

Caress from your hands

Affection in your eyes

We met all the sudden

We’ve became important in each other’s lives

Instantaneous love swept us high ..

Words have seem to lost their way

I may not able to show you how I feel

Or say or even I can’t feign

All I feel all I want can be seen Through my eyes

Through my whispers through my rhymes

All above skies

When the clouds cry

When flowers blossom

When rains feed terrains

I wait with my anxious With curiosity

with anticipation Within calm sedate mien

Wait for the dream I’ve weaved

Future I’ve acclaimed

And I still wait for

Caress from your hands

Affection in your eyes

We met, all the sudden

We’ve became important in each other’s lives

Instantaneous love swept us high

Love is a gift from somewhere in this constellation
It is what carries power to build nations
Create and sustain civilizations

It is pure strength from within
Free from all misfortunes and sin
It shares fortunes with the world
Because it carries millions of pounds in a full mine of gold
The sun shines forever hearts never get old
Just exit to enter a new day a new road
The sun never sets we climb all mountains step by step
Leaving behind hatred and neglect to find purity in obscurity

Love is much more than what meets the eye
It is the rainbow in the sky
Love is evolution last hope only solution
Above written laws written in the universal constitution

Love is you in the purest form
Love is light after the storm
Love is much more than what your hands can touch can reach
More than a grain of sand on the beach
It is the wound healed and sealed without a stitch

It is mankind with the past behind
After the war after the one that was here before
Hanging on the rope
After the one who survived the shooting and the stroke
Love is the shattered glass that never broke
It is the written story that no one ever wrote

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant 
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.


--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied.  It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going,
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.

Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.

But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.

I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.

I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

Thomas Merton

I Wanna Stay In Love With My Sorrow .. But God I Want Let It Go

♥

Wake up inside .. Call my Name and Save me From the Dark !!